I had a big cart, which I usually don't enjoy (we have these two-tier short carts that are great and not unwieldy at all), but I needed to get a boatload of gluten free mac and cheese (the kind that doesn't need milk or butter), and canned gf soups, and tuna, and peanut butter, and at least 30 rolls of toilet paper. I have an irrational fear of running out of toilet paper in an emergency, that started when a coworker's sister was stuck in the freak 7-foot snowfall in Buffalo a few years ago and toilet paper was like GOLD. I try to always have extra on hand, but I wanted a super stash.
Just in case.
All these things are stuff we'd use anyway; it just feels weird to every day wonder where the next case will crop up and how quickly it will spread and cause some level of chaos. It's the chaos that scares me more than the virus, even though I have asthma and respiratory illnesses are the devil for me (but otherwise I'm youngish and healthyish).
When I first read Station Eleven, it brought up moments of "ohhhhh, I will totally not survive an event like this." Mostly because people ran out of medication, and if I run out of asthma medication I am no longer controlled, and there's a scene where nothing good happens to someone who's been out of their antidepressants, and although I might run out blood pressure medicine I'd probably not be feasting during a dystopian future, so maybe that would sort itself out.
It's weird feeling a bit like every day seems a little more like living in one of the novels I enjoy so much. Will the economy collapse? Will there be marauders? Do I need to come up with an edgy post-apocalyptic name and shave half my head so I'm not a target?
I would like to point out that I am not actually panicking, just exploring all possible options in my weird brain. And hoping that the next time I go to the grocery store I don't feel embarrassed by my cart and like I have to mutter about my 5 kids to cover up for the kinda-sorta-minor-prepping that I'm engaging in (which I'm sure didn't occur to anyone else, even though I was totally checking out other carts to see if I wasn't the only one following the zillions of "what to buy for a pandemic" lists out there).
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