Monday, January 11, 2016
#Microblog Mondays: IEP Season of Uncertainty
And so it begins...today we had our department meeting that kicks off Annual Review season, when Special Education teachers bunker down and live in a sea of paperwork and due dates and meetings.
It's a very stressful time. Add to that the whole National Board thing and regular lesson planning/grading and APPR stuff, and I am hyperventilating already.
Then, THEN figure in that I don't know when I'm going to go out on maternity leave...will it be while I'm still writing IEPs? Will it be after they're written but I won't be able to do my own meetings? Should I schedule my meetings early so I can try to be psychic and beat whatever the Universe throws down, or schedule them late so if I do go out my sub will have a chance to learn my kids and have as much of my paperwork in as possible?
I realize in the grand scheme of things, that these meetings and all the associated paperwork are small potatoes and shouldn't be my top priority. But, I can't help but feel like if I am actually going to go out this year, that I want to go out in good shape, with this piece of things tied up neatly in a bow.
I think about this too when I'm thinking about the novels I teach in the spring, and wondering if I'll actually get to teach them to this group. Again, shouldn't be my top priority, but I can't help wondering and feeling just a little sad not to have a crystal ball to tell me what I'll get to be a part of and what I won't, all while knowing that if I miss things at school it's because I'm getting to experience the dream we've had for over six years and it's finally coming to pass.
All this uncertainty and not-knowing makes me extraordinarily uncomfortable, and so I am having to spend an extra amount of effort in trying to stay in the present, to just live in the now, to not extrapolate out too far. Wish me luck.
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